Changes

  Do you guys know?I hate changes. I think changes are stupid and utterly complex. But i'm now different , the Nur Amalina now believe in good changes. Cause change is not an option, it's stated by yourself or itself. Take it , or leave it ;). That's just what humans are. But look at the bright side , human can change into a better person than they are before. And it's a good thing ;)  ♥

Honesty , is the best Policy.

Hii . Assalamualaikum . Hahah. I was thinking about not-posting-any-more because i think it'll be troublesome if people thought it was them xD. Gomen , sorry . Today's topic is Honesty , I , myself hate lies. So whenever people lie , I tried to caught them =.= . Seriously though , but i think before i act , so i think sometimes when people lie , you just gotta nod thinking that you really believe them so that they dont feel offended in my ways. One of my friends , "Suhana" is really honest! She'll say something she really wants and she doesn't care when people gets hurt :p. I respect her for that , but seriously , LOL. xD. I always defend the ones she's trying to offend sometimes. Suhana jangan marah lak ek D; , Anyhow , i'm here to give a speech about Believe , trust , honesty and policy. Though i won't get too much about policy =.=" . Anyhow , I RARELY lie to people. Unless it's really necessary. and sometimes I LIE, because i don't want them to get hurt. Example if people ask me "cantik tak?" i'll jawab Cantik! ^-^ , when it's really not .... ;/ i feel sorry for lying to the ones but sometimes , it's a good thing. And sometimes i even lie for my sake! Example , a few months ago , my school held a Carnival. My mom's gonna pick me up soooooooo late. So i started get bored after waiting for 1-2 hours. I sat there. Being alone as usual. Then i started making an epic face and started becoming pissed =.=" then i said to my mom (text&call) "Mak , Alin (nickname) , balik ngan kawan yang nama "Khairul" LOL. I have no idea why Khairul is my choice! I think it's cause i don't want to lie TOOO much to my mom. I mean like if i said i'll go home with a girl my mom would be curious cause she knows ALL the girls i hangout with and if i told any of them my mom would surely investigate! So i literally need to make like a plan to ONLY LIE ABOUT 1 THING. and that is tumpang kawan balik rumah. So i decided since KHAIRUL HAKIM LOL. Tinggal kat USJ 9 , why not say that i went home by tumpang him. and if my mom ask "Khairul ni tinggal mane?" "takkan nak hantar alin jauh jauh kut" then i said Dia tinggal kat usj 9 ^-^ and it's true , Khairul tinggal kat USJ 9 and that's great so that i don't have to lie about where he lived, but unfortunately , my plan dint go as smoothly as i hoped it'd be , i mean like I'm good at KNOWING people who LIE, but WORSE at trying to LIE. xD i always make like a bersalah face when i lie. Then my mom said "What car did he use?" and i'm like shit idk what car he used what the.. then i said to my mom "Vios..." then my mom said "Vios?" then i said yeah then she said "What color" and i'm like oh shit what kind of colors does Vios have , sorry i'm using the words "shit" i really am in a terrible situation that time , It's a CRISIS XD , anyway , i'm like omg , then i said "Putih" then i'm like OMG VIOS DOESN'T HAVE A WHITE COLOR SHIT. then i said to myself "OMG MOM PLEASE DONT FIND OUT , DONT FIND OUT , DONT FIND OUT" then my mom kept quiet , then i feel SOOOOO relieved. if not i would've get caught. Or if i did , i'd say "Uh , Dia punya mom special sikit" but either way i dont think my mom would believe that excuse LOL. Sorry for using your name Khairul! ^.- , anyway , my mom then ask "Dia tinggal usj9 strok brp?" and i'm so annoyed my mom kept asking this questions and i said "^-^ mane lah Alin nak tau , mak ingatkan alin ni ape nak tanya dia banyak2 question" then my mom laughed. Then i said :p malu tau naik kereta lelaki , my mom laughed again. BUT THE WHOLE TRUTH IS! , i actually ran back home... LOL. From my school , i went out and i ran to this jambatan then i went across , then i ran back home. It's a good thing I always exercise so i don't break a sweat when i ran to home. No wait i did have a lot of sweat ... oh no .. then my heart pounded very fastly and i started drinking Syrup LOL. So, the moral of the day now is ... Lie when it's ONLY NECESSARY. And for the best , don't lie. LOL. Arigatou Gozaimasu , Merci , Shukran , Terima Kasih , Thank You! :DD Assalamualaikum , Have a splendid day! :D

A Heart Of A Glass- Part 2 ;)

Hello. Assalamualaikum . Daaaaaaaaaan , Salam Sejahtera. Must i introduce myself? xD You know if you really want me to introduce myself , i'll babble a lot of crap you know. P.S, i dont think you want to hear the crap xD. Anyway , it seems so quiet . Did i do something wrong? Is there a mistake? Do you hate me ? Is there problems? What should i do? Should i speak more? Should i just stay quiet ? Should i entertain you? Should i make a few jokes ? A lot of questions has gotten into my mind. A LOT. It's making me confusing and i cant stand it anymore :( i wish i never liked you so that these questions wont be so messed up in my mind :( I told myself to stop liking you i said "Amalina hey hey hey , STOP LIKING HIM" but i tried my best to not like him but it's just too hard to lie to your heart. Cause he does have someone else and i never ever ever want to interupt him. Ever. :-( I'm sad. I wanna sob. but i can't . What is this feeling? can anyone tell me? the feeling is like an arrow is stabbed into your heart and it's very hard to heal. No wait. There's no medicine to heal that. All i hear is fake laughter. One of my friends said the guy who have me is lucky. Hmph! Lucky you! =.=" . One day , you 'll see , i'll forget about you and become strong! hahaha! :D and i'll try my best in EVERYTHING! :D i'll run 5km a day. Be good in sports , get taller , be smarter , be wiser , :D and foremost. My goal now is FORGET ABOUT YOU! Yeah , that's true. I shall do that. And then if my heart is generous , my heart will like someone else , YEAH! Why would i need someone who can't even understand me! :D and ofc someone who likes someone else =.=". I wanna say , good luck finding a girl like me , cause you know what? There isn't any girl like me. HAHAH! Ok i'm creeping myself out. I should stop this , this is sarcasm. Anyway. Good luck with your life , i end this chapter with a rhyme , P.S i made this myself. - The world is swaying where are you? , when the times is shaking you never came , i dont understand why cant my heart change , but i'll be sure to forget the shame! -.- hahahah! Shame on you. ok sorry i'm creeping you out :'( LOOOOL. I'm being so dramatic LOOOOL. Assalamualaikum and Happy Holidays!  Quote of the day: "Only challenge people who you can't beat" My quote is so awesome. (Y) LOL. G'day. xD

The Heart of a glass/The Hardship of believing story. Part 1.

Salam. Hey , how are you guys? Haven't online in facebook for 3-4-5 NO, 8 DAYS. xD i highlighted them cause i think 8 days is a very long time. Anyway i'm very excited cause i'm going padang soon at 5:00 :) . Other than that , i wanna explain to you guys how hard it is to believe in someone. Short story , 2 in 1 , hows that? :) , some people think my english is too complicated that they can't understand me =.= . I'll try explaining in a bit of Malay. Attention (I'll TRY). xD . Anyway , enough of all the introduction , Chapter one , part 1 has just begin! I might try and make myself a book if it's enough till 7 stories like the harry potter LOL. But harry potter is WAAY . TOO . LOONG. I mean it like WAAY . It's so out of my league ok!  I won't try and make a Harry Potter story but don't you think i'm like doing it right now. LOL . Ok. sorry if my blog is too long i just have so much to say. Anyway , here goes part 1 the story of myself how my heart is a heart of a glass . That phrase is to say that my heart could break easily. Example. The person who i have a crush on doesn't seem to pre understand what MASSAGE i'm trying to give. I dint mean like texting lol . I mean like the words that i'm telling him . - Actions speaks louder than words - ;) anyway if it has confirmed that i will never ever see him again then i will confess indeed. You know , if i ever ask the person to delete me , forget about me , or . leave me alone" it means there's BTS you never knew.I said that kind of things to many people so i think a lot of you out there think i'm implying on you when i'm not.Hmph!There's always a reason for something and it's NOT because i hate you . Anyway , i guess someone's wondering what does BTS means <.< haha! My guess are 99.9% correct. But you know , sometimes it hurts and it hurts more if the someone doesn't know that you're hurt. I'm not implying on like i like someone blah blah . Gr . It makes me mad when someone judge me. But when i ask someone to delete me, leave me alone or forget me. It always means "Don't" and usually if i put the word "Oh" not Ohhh . but "Oh" it's best replaced with "I'm hurt" -.- . Anyway I started being annoying to (me) self cause i started thinking to confess. Even though i know it will end of a rejection cause i can't stand of keeping it when it's too much. Anyway why do i have to say SORRY for something that YOU'RE mad of and that something that I DINT DO ANYTHING and i'm SORRY THAT YOU CANT UNDERSTAND ME OK I FEEL LIKE CHOCKING YOU CHOCKING YOU! =.= . gr . I feel so lifeless. Anyway , haven't been opening facebook lately anyway, got so many friend requests and massages =.= and notifications , aahhhrrhggh, i dun want read them all . I wish that the person who i used to like "Barbie dolll" would never give up on me. So that i still like him. But he did , he did forget me i guess O.O , but now i like someone else and that someone else doesn't like me and keep saying, asking not understanding and being a pathetic friend =.= indeed. anyway , i'm not calling him pathetic just saying no offense. K . Anyway , i'm being sarcastic , i hate you . K. Anyway, sorry for the longest blog ever see ? part 1 isn't even finish and i can hear you guys snoring. anyway the hardship of believing will continue later LOL. Shoo shoo go to ure own bed don't sleep here!Anyway, the person who i like is actually , SHHH,Harun Omar Jokes, it's actually Suren , jokes, none of them :) LOL. none of them, who do you think? ^.- omg i just checked and i realised you can check whats in the highlight immah edit who's in it LOL. Assalamualaikum and Happy Holidays! =)

Smile.

Salam. Hi. I feel devastated that i dint get 5A. But what could i do?Just redha je laah. But to the person who reads this. I DON'T NEED CONGRATULATIONS!! OR IT'S OKAY!! . IT REALLY MAKES ME SAD YOU ALL DO THAT YOU KNOW!!!. I won't do any emoticons on that >.> . Anyway , i dint really cry but inside who the heck knows . But i bersyukur kepada Allah SWT. Kerana dah tolong aq untuk menjadi seorang yang lebih baik. About 7 people congratulated me. Wait no 9.  Do you know i keep increasing sadness everytime people say "Congratulations, you're so good!" Or WHATEVER IT IS THAT SAYS CONGRATULATIONS OR TAHNIAH. I almost cried infront of the laptop when one of my friend says "Congratulations" . Ok. So this is what i feel. - The day of the UPSR result , my heart is throbbing . I am anxious but at the same time excited. I went to a restaurant and ate with my mom and sister. A few minutes after eating , i feel tired and sick. As if my perut could suddenly explode. I don't feel like eating. After going to school , i smile everytime even after i got the result. I don't want to show any sadness to any human being on earth. It's as if I'm a person to be pitied. I don't have the courage to move on about this blog but i guess my friend really wants to know. So , after that , i got the Pemahaman paper and i found out i got 5 wrong. It's cool , i'm so happy i couldn't breathe. My sister said "Don't get too excited" Just as expected from the meanest sister . EVER.  -.- . anyway yeah i felt so happy. Moving on , when teacher is calling for the result i suddenly hear my friend's name "Hidayah" "Lima A" and i'm like i go crazy like a freak being so happy for her. It's as if like if i get 5A i'll be more happier if she does. It's like that. But in fact , i dint get 5A. Just 4A's 1B. Later on , i hear Pn.Hafizah said "Nur Amalina" "........" . And i'm like :) ok. and inside i'm like "..." then suddenly i took the paper and sit. I saw that i got 4A's 1B. I feel sad. As even i couldn't breathe again. And i'm about to cry and fall. But i said to myself Don't cry. It's ok. Be happy. DONT CRY. then suddenly i went smiling to the person who got 5A and congratulated them. I'm crying a little bit on the laptop screen. I feel . very . useless . I'll end this blog with a rhyme , I'm smiling but inside i'm dying , i won't show you but i'm actually crying , i know my friend feels happy as if they are flying , but i know that i'll be fine as long as i keep trying. Thank you for reading. Don't congratulate me. Tq. ksalam . >.>

Gomen - ;[

Hehe. Gomen tu maksudnye sorry ;) .Sorry i dint renew my blog lately. And i'm using Japanese. Like what happen to Amalina :OOOOO. xD. I'm quite busy with raya haji etc lately. So tak sempat hehe. Jajajajajajaja. Tak tau ape nak tulis -.^ haha.Ok lah i wanna talk about my cousins ^.- dah janji nak cakap pasal cousins. Why naut? xD I put naut for fun you know don't think my English is broken o.o. Well basically i have like 10 cousins. Wait no, more. My mom have 10 siblings :OO she's the fourth. The first one if my Aunt, I call her Wan Ani =]. She have 2 children. One of them is a girl. She's married. The other one is a boy. His mom opened a Ciber Cafe and asked him to run it. He's quite nice. Since i went to Kelantan my face is always like -__________- . Cause like there's no internet. No nothing.But luckily my nicest cousin ever gave me to play at the computer there. I was sho happy xDD you could tell by my "Sho" LOL. Other than the internet, my phone? no use. No one to talk to. If i do have someone to talk to the friend wouldn't bother anyway. Haaah Malas nak cakap pasal tu. anyway, The second of my mom's sibling is i don't really call the full name LOL. I just call him Ayah G- idk why i refer my uncles as "Ayah" everyone does that. But my cuteeeeeeeeee little cousin which is like 5 named Hajar dare to call people using their names xDDD budak kecik kaan. Nak buat ape? . Ha'ah i also wanna talk about how i naik plane to KL today XDD Epic gile douh . A maksaleh sat beside me. And i'm like . MAAAAK HELP MEEE NOO. LOL. My mom was like looking at me and i'm like -shakes my head- no ma , ma , exchange laah . Then too late already the maksaleh sat already -__-. You know how crazy it all went!!?!??! I dint even wear seatbelts!! Seatbelts!! . Cause , unfortunately the maksaleh (Guy) sat on it. And i'm like. O.O looking at him O.O huh. Then i was like buat muke sombong then baca buku. HAR HAR HAR. Saje je. I'm not sombong type ok. It's just when i balik kampung people always look at me. Maklumlahkan i'm pretty cute . HAHAHAHAH gurau . LOLOL. d: . Anyway yeah the maksaleh sat on my seat belt and i dint wear my seatbelt the whole flight.. Do you know how scary it was.. It was like flying with no parachute . Like seriously. The kapal terbang went like VROOM BLAST OFF laju gile and then i felt like OMG EF LOL.I literally said that in my heart. But i acted cool and read a magazine. I read it politely . Never look to that person. And sat with pride muahaha. That's the way of "proper" you gotta learn it somehow. and the whole flight was a complete misery casuse first. i have to be proper since i don't want the maksaleh person Malaysian is very improper and rude. -__-. and second i have to act cool like i don't care about falling from my seat. And third. I have to bear with a maksaleh guy sitting next to me. But i'm quite polite with him though. He's quite nice. He even tegur me when the lady gave me drinks and beverages. and i'm like :) Oh, Thank you. In my heart i'm like -______- i hate you really just go to the toilet so i can put my seatbelt on or something. lol. But yeah , the experience was cool. Alhamdulillah. I even said to my heart. Ya allah tolonglah jangan bagi aq jatuh atau mati hari ni kerana x pakai tali keledar. and i'm like the person next to me is at fault if i die mom LOL. Awh all the story is about the maksaleh guy isn't it. OoooooOOooo. Sorry cousins! Better yet i'll be posting about you guys laterz! Capcha! See you soon people. Assalamualaikum ~