Smile.

Salam. Hi. I feel devastated that i dint get 5A. But what could i do?Just redha je laah. But to the person who reads this. I DON'T NEED CONGRATULATIONS!! OR IT'S OKAY!! . IT REALLY MAKES ME SAD YOU ALL DO THAT YOU KNOW!!!. I won't do any emoticons on that >.> . Anyway , i dint really cry but inside who the heck knows . But i bersyukur kepada Allah SWT. Kerana dah tolong aq untuk menjadi seorang yang lebih baik. About 7 people congratulated me. Wait no 9.  Do you know i keep increasing sadness everytime people say "Congratulations, you're so good!" Or WHATEVER IT IS THAT SAYS CONGRATULATIONS OR TAHNIAH. I almost cried infront of the laptop when one of my friend says "Congratulations" . Ok. So this is what i feel. - The day of the UPSR result , my heart is throbbing . I am anxious but at the same time excited. I went to a restaurant and ate with my mom and sister. A few minutes after eating , i feel tired and sick. As if my perut could suddenly explode. I don't feel like eating. After going to school , i smile everytime even after i got the result. I don't want to show any sadness to any human being on earth. It's as if I'm a person to be pitied. I don't have the courage to move on about this blog but i guess my friend really wants to know. So , after that , i got the Pemahaman paper and i found out i got 5 wrong. It's cool , i'm so happy i couldn't breathe. My sister said "Don't get too excited" Just as expected from the meanest sister . EVER.  -.- . anyway yeah i felt so happy. Moving on , when teacher is calling for the result i suddenly hear my friend's name "Hidayah" "Lima A" and i'm like i go crazy like a freak being so happy for her. It's as if like if i get 5A i'll be more happier if she does. It's like that. But in fact , i dint get 5A. Just 4A's 1B. Later on , i hear Pn.Hafizah said "Nur Amalina" "........" . And i'm like :) ok. and inside i'm like "..." then suddenly i took the paper and sit. I saw that i got 4A's 1B. I feel sad. As even i couldn't breathe again. And i'm about to cry and fall. But i said to myself Don't cry. It's ok. Be happy. DONT CRY. then suddenly i went smiling to the person who got 5A and congratulated them. I'm crying a little bit on the laptop screen. I feel . very . useless . I'll end this blog with a rhyme , I'm smiling but inside i'm dying , i won't show you but i'm actually crying , i know my friend feels happy as if they are flying , but i know that i'll be fine as long as i keep trying. Thank you for reading. Don't congratulate me. Tq. ksalam . >.>