Sadness.

Hye guys. Assalamualaikum. Today i will be talking about sadness. About PAIN. The truth is that no one really understands me. I really feel like crying. Like my eyes are really red and have tears. But i really try to keep my smile , to make everyone happy ^_^ that is the reason why i smile. The reason is because even though i am hurt , i am trying to make people happy and trying to be polite. No one understands me , not even my 2nd bestfriend which is a guy. He just said salam and logged off. I know i'm just a doll anyway. Waiting to be used. Like people used me . I think he used me to get to his beloved gf . But i don't care cause i know that even though i have no true friends i still have my heart. My heart was given but i took it earlier today . Seorang ustaz berkata "Jangan sesekali menyentuh wanita termasuk hatinya" . So i'm no longer liking people. It's very painful .  If you're reading this , i'm so sorry that i dissapointed you . Sorry that i've been a bad "DOLL" to you all the time . Sorry SHE can't come to the places but i've tried my best. JUST SORRY. It is very painful . For a girl , boys don't understand little things could make them cry. Anyway i wanna go basuh muka. I won't be coming tomorrow cause i don't want to see him. He's too mad at me that he can't even see me i think . Look , you're great. You're a person and i know i don't deserve to be your friend. I don't deserve to be anyone. -When the pain to hold on , is greater than the pain to let go , then it's time to let go"- I'm letting you go. Cause it's too painful already.Thx for listening. You might not understand , but i know that i can understand this myself and cry to myself :') Illaliqa!!! ^_^ Assalamualaikum . "Sorry, that i can't be , a perfect friend"